I've been thinking about Singspiration for awhile, and then something happened today in church and I had to try and put the experience into words. So hold on, because here I go.
When I attended Biola, there was a Sunday night worship time called, (yep) Singspiration. Now, being a group of good Christian college students, we were all expected to go to a local church on Sunday morning. However, that did not always happen. Lack of transportation, lack of sleep, excess of homework, excess of socialization Saturday nights, well, we were not always the most faithful church attendees. So Singspiration was an hour long, student led worship time. Singing. (you coulda guessed that, eh?) I'm pretty sure that this service was offered all the years I attended Biola, but there was one year that I went every week. In fact, everyone I knew went every week, because that year, something amazing and wonderful happened. God showed up each and every week. And it wasn't that the songs were so original, or that the leaders were so gifted (two guys, a guitar, and an overhead projector), or even that the chapel was spectacular. I frequently sat next to people who could not even sing that well. No matter. We all went because we all knew that He would be there, and that we needed Him, and that we would recieve Him to overflowing. It was a singular amazing experience. (We were discussing this in our bible study group, and I turned to Stuart, and said, "You remember that year. . . " and he finished with, " . . . the year that Singspiration was so great." It was really that good.)
I've attended many churches since that year, many Bible-preaching solid churches filled with people who love God and want to know Him more. The church I currently attend has some of the best worship leaders and songs that I've known. But I have not had a Singspiration experience in a long time. Until today. Why today? I'm not sure. Maybe because I needed it. Perhaps because many people at church today needed it and expected it. I don't know. If I could pinpoint the exact mix of prayer, need, circumstances, songs . . . I'd order it up every Sunday. But I felt it during this song:
Before there was time
There were visions in Your mind
There was death in the fall of mankind
But there was life in salvation's design
Before there were days
There were nights I could not see Your face
But the night could not keep me from grace
When You came and took my place
So I cry holy only begotten Son of God
Ancient of days
I cry holy only begotten Son of God
And sing the praises
Of the One who saved me
And the promises He made
Before there was time
You counted the hairs on my head
You knew all the words I've said
And You purchased me back from the dead
Before I was made
You searched me and knew my ways
You numbered all my days
And You set forth the steps I would take
You saved me; You raised me
You saved me; You pulled me from the grave
So I cry holy only begotten Son of God
Ancient of days
I cry Holy only begotten Son of God
And sing the praises
Of the one who saved me
And the promises He made
Before there was time
(Copyright Credits: Written By: Aaron Senseman Copyright: © 2001 Stuntman Music)At the end, I had an incredible feeling of peace, and I thought to myself, if the only thing we do in heaven is sing that song over and over again, it will be fine by me. (Arrgh, that frustrates me, because "fine" is not the word, nor is "great" or "wonderful" or "acceptable". I can't find the word. A feeling of perfect peace, fleeting now but lasting when we get there, a knowledge that it is enough, that it is more than enough, that it will be joyful and amazing and restful all at the same time. What is the word for that? Anyone know?)
So, there it is. This is inadequate to describe what happened, but it's what I wanted to put into words.